I saw this somewhere today and it spoke volumes...

The phenomenon of becomming involved with a person who possesses so much self loathing that they willfully humiliate you for caring about them is not one I'd like to participate in ever again.

I found an old blog entry off of easyjournal and it was about Greg... I've noticed that my other entries are so much better than the ones on here. I guess it's because they're more personal? Not that I wouldn't share my life with anyone reading on here... I guess I'm not ready to share everything.

But here's the entry... I don't know why I chose this one out of all the others, but I did. I'm not talking about Over It by the way.

Blogged 3.11.2004

:: The time it takes, the time it takes to let go ::

We don't stand a chance in this threadbare town... so I was talking to a friend of mine today whose band got signed not too long ago [I am so happy for them], and is currently touring the United States. It's really interesting to see them grow and how far they've come [Geeze, I sound like a mother]. They've worked so hard for this and I'm so excited that they're finally being rewarded for all their hard work and living out their dreams... small town boys, with big dreams, and where does that leave me in the picture? I am but a bystander, smiling because of their progress and success, but crying inside because I know that they'll be leaving despite all their promises not to. Please don't make promises you can't keep. Please don't. Anyway, my friend has been touching base with me as his band hits all the venues of Florida, Texas, Vegas and now California... I like that all of this hasn't gotten to him [so far so good, please don't lose your southern charm, I love you for it], anyway, I love how excited he gets when he plays a show, he calls or leaves messages where I can feel all the emotions that he does and I can't help but want to hug him and be there with him and his band. I know this is a big deal for them, and it's amazing... Anyway, back on track, so the band is in California right now. Los Angeles right now aka "City of Angels," and he called and was telling me how much he loved it. Naturally. Who doesn't love California?! He loves L.A., I can hear it in his voice... his evident satisfaction is so clear to me, almost as clear as the words I anticipate he'll say in the following days, "Goodbye, I'm leaving you for L.A." And that's why i'm crying inside, I am SO happy for him, don't get me wrong, this is everything he has ever wanted and then some... call me selfish, but I don't want to lose him to L.A. but I know I will, even though he promised before he left that he'd always come back, I have a feeling that things have changed. I can hear it in his voice... he's in love with L.A. I can't take that feeling from him, nor can I compete with it... and what hurts is that I know the news is coming... even though he hasn't said it yet, I know it will come if not sooner than later. Cheers Darlin...

Hokie Hokie Hokie Hi - Tech, Tech, VPI - Sol a rex, Sol a rah - Poly Tech Virginia - Ray, Rah, VPI - TEAM TEAM TEAM!

Funniest thing EVER happened this morning. I just woke up and checked my messages that people left on AIM and Drew left me a message about where his dorm was because everyone found out yesterday. Anyway at Tech, we have the largest all guy dorm on the east coast called Pritchard and so all summer he's been praying that he wouldn't get it and so when he found out that he wasn't staying in Pritchard this is what he said:

Lax393: hell yeah im not in prichard
Lax393: Vawter 0163
Lax393: no biggest sausage feast on the east coast for me

After seeing this, I was really really happy for him and I have no idea where his dorm is relative to mine [Lee 415 by the way] so I went to the Tech website and looked up Vawter and it turns out that Vawter is an all guy dorm... so much for not taking part in sausage fest 2004. So I just sent him the link and he's away right now, but I wonder how he'll react because that really sucks. Unless, the website is outdated and Vawter is now a co-ed dorm... but I doubt it and just for the sake of this story even if it became a co-ed dorm recently, I'm just going to pretend it's an all guy dorm.

Here's a link to Vawter: http://www.studentprograms.vt.edu/vtour/vawter.php

I also just found out that my dorm is frikin awesome because it's right next to Pritchard... the largest all-male dorm on the east coast and Lee's co-ed too. That's hotness.

Here's a link to Lee: http://www.studentprograms.vt.edu/vtour/lee.php

So this is pretty much what made my morning spectacular. Thanks Drew.

Movies that I love... Top 5 style only with more than 5 and in their respective order

1. Donnie Darko
2. Chocolat
3. Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amélie Poulain [also known as Amelie - I love my French movies, and the cinematography in this one is great]
4. Igby Goes Down
5. High Fidelity
6. There's Something About Mary
7. Zoolander
8. Dead Poet's Society
9. Emperor's Club [no, this is not the exact same movie as Dead Poet's Society no matter what anyone tells you]
10. The Skulls
11. Finding Forrester
12. Kate & Leopold - yeah I know... laugh it up
13. La vita è bella

Update on our favorite band ever... Over It
 
Do you remember when Pete and his band would play Providence a few years back? Remember standing in the crowd in awe because you knew these guys were different - just by hearing one song... guitar licks, lyrics, vocals... you knew they were legit. Now do you remember the day they got signed? You were so happy because they were finally getting the recognition they desereved. Remember the day you found out they were moving to California? Mixed emotions. Knowing that you were so happy for Pete, Seth, James, and Nick, but sad to see the best underground band in the Northern Virginia scene leave, not knowing when they came back. And do you remember how you felt when they came back to NoVa for their first home show since moving to California... you were there every step of the way. WE were there every step of the way.

Now guess what... they've done it again. They never cease to amaze us. They spent a few months this year opening for Yellowcard and when the lead singer got injured and couldn't sing... Pete filled in... OUR PETE filled in. And for the record... a lot of people said they liked Pete singing the songs more than the original guy. Yeah. These are our boys. And now they're playing Warped Tour this summer and when they get back, they're going on tour with Rufio, Halifax, and Say Anything.

Yeah. O-face.

Finally. We all know how frikin talented these guys are, they've been our best kept secret for years, but it's about time they started to get the recognition they deserve. For those of you who haven't heard of Over It... I'm just going to tell you now that this year is their  year. They're going to be frikin Huge.

PS: I got to hear some of their new material and it is badass. It's different from their other stuff, but it's still the same 4 guys working their asses off and raising the bar. So in otherwords, their new stuff is absolutely phenomenal... my jaw dropped. Just to think from Providence to Warped Stage... and we've been there for the ride. Amazing. When that new CD comes out, I know I'll be all over it.

Until then... I still love OVER IT.

03-04 District Board... get it get it.
 
I went to Williamsburg on Friday night for the District Board reunion. I had so much fun - it was so good to see everyone again. Most of the Lieutenant Governors came so did the Executive Board Members and some Honorary Board Memebers came and LUNCHED so hard. It was good times. Nice change of pace too. The orginial plan was to go to Busch Gardens on Saturday, but it was raining so we all decided not to go. Instead we lunched some more, and watched some movies and went out to dinner, came back and lunched AGAIN. It was amazing. Hump/Spoonfest 2004. I'll post pictures up on CH sometime this week. Speaking of lunchin, we played Taboo at 3am and Battle of the Sexes - girls clearly won. We missed Nina... (Nina... you bitch. Leaving US for the Bahahahahahahamas - it's okay I would have done it too) Anyway everyone went over to Casey's this morning because she just got back from Mexico, but Sarah and I couldn't because she had to be somewhere so Case-Case, if you're reading - WE LUSH YOU. :Þ Yeah so I guess that's about it.

PS: The Sarah-Marriott will officially be open August 18, 2004. Tap that.

Oh yeah, everyone come to the UVA/Tech football game at VT. (My money's on Virginia Tech... clearly) It'll be HOT. There are already 10 people staying with us. It's like the Board Reunion part deux - you're welcome to stay with me and Sarah - we will LUNCH.

Moving, moving - up up and away.

So as many of you know I'm moving. Saying goodbye to the house I have lived in for a whole 5 years and trying to call this new place 'home.' I'm leaving in August, so I have a month. It won't feel like home. I just know it won't, especially when I come back for breaks. Don't get me wrong - I LOVE this new house, but I feel like I'm leaving so much behind at the same time. But that's life right? You just have to move on and make new memories. On that note, I've realized that I will be moving a lot. Moving into the new house with my parents and then less than a month later - moving into my own place.

Yes, moving into my own place. Crazy. I act like it's going to be amazing. I know I will have all the freedom in the world, but to tell you the truth... my parents aren't very restrictive. They figure I'm old enough to do my own thing and I thank them for that and I thank them for giving me my space and not always telling me what to do. Moving out is a big step even though I'll be with Sarah. We'll have so much fun - there's no doubt about it, it's just that it won't be the same. I'll have to learn how to cook. I'll have do do things for myself - I won't have anyone to do them for me and I'm okay with that. I know I will have my ups and downs and I can promise you that I will have money management issues because I've never had my own bank account. I know imagine that. I don't know how to balance a check book. But this is what being independant is all about right? Letting go - finally doing things for yourself. I've lived a pretty sheltered life, and there have always been people that I could go to for help or lean on whenever I needed them. Now that my cushion's gone - the only person I can go to is myself. And in some ways that's a scary thought. Imagine growing up and always have somebody else make the decisions for you and not have to worry about anything and it's surreal to know that I won't have that group of people anymore. But in all honesty - this is what I need. I need to learn to do things for myself - these people won't be around forever. I'm ready to take on these challenges whatever they may be and learn some life lessons.

Song of the Day: "Mad World" - Gary Jules.

I bought High Fidelity the other day. I love that movie, it's about time I owned it. Every time I watch it, I tell myself I'm going to make "top 5" lists, but I never really do it so... this time I'm determined to do a top 5 of some kind, maybe not the top 5 most hurtful relationships like John Cusack did in the movie - I don't know if I even have a top 5 for that yet, but I want to do something... anything... so here goes...
 
Top 5 songs [at the moment]
 
1. Hallelujah ~ Rufus Wainwright
2. Somebody told me ~ The Killers
3. Method Acting ~ Bright Eyes [Conor Oberst is a musical genius]
4. Blue Eyes ~ Glendora [I will break down when I hear this song]
5. We Looked like Giants ~ Death Cab for Cutie [Ben Gibbard is just... wow]
 
* On that note... let it be known that my ULTIMATE DREAM would be for Conor Oberst and Ben Gibbard to collaborate and blow our minds. Anyone agree?
 
Top 5 CDs in rotation [at the moment]
 
1. Lifted or The Story is in the Soil, Keep Your Ear to the Ground ~ Bright Eyes
2. Beneath the Medicine Tree ~ Copeland [That one gets me every single time]
3. Stop the all the world ~ Howie Day
4. Franz Ferdinand ~ Franz Ferdinand
5.  Transatlanticism~ Death Cab for Cutie
 
*Note: Something Corporate's "North" was really close and almost made it in the top 5
 
And that concludes the top 5's for now... but they will be back.

Here's to the nights we felt alive - here's to the tears you knew you'd cry - here's too goodbye tomorrow's gonna come too soon... too soon
 
I don't even want to think about leaving and saying my goodbyes... as July comes to an end, my days are limited with the people that mean the world to me. I'm not ready nor am I prepared for any of this. Of course I am so excited about this fall and new experiences, new friendships and everything in between, but there's a piece of me that desperately wants to stay and that piece of me is hanging on to a string that I've reached the end of. Goodbyes are not my forte and seeing as how I am one of the first to leave [aside from fellow Hokies Drew, Tommy, and Brit] I'm really dreading it. I don't know how to go about it, and I am 100% not ready to look in the eyes of all these people that I have grown with and have shaped me into the person I am today knowing that I may never see these some of these people again. In school they prepare you for academic success, but they don't prepare you for anything like this. At one point, I know I'll eventually have to let go, but it's way too soon and it makes me so sad just thinking about it. We have made it so far with one another there every step of the way, for moral support to catch us when we fall, through all the laughter and the tears... how can I possibly have to say goodbye to you guys? I can't bring myself to do it and let me just warn you guys now that I will be so emotionally unstable that week it'll be funny. I have spent the last 4 years trying to figuring out how this whole system works and trying to make it so that I am comfortable in the skin that I'm in as well as the people I surround myself with and FINALLY... I am able to do that after all those years and now I have to just up and go and leave my comfort zone. I can't do it, not now, not yet.
 
So after a lot of polling, late night phone calls, a million questions, and then some... I've finally decided that for my Birthday we should all go to Georgetown. Yes, and we'll even make it a black tie event - seeing as how this is one of the last events where we all can be together before everyone leaves, we might as well look hot right? Why not make the pictures and the memories awesome. Ha ha... plus Georgetown's night life is amazing not Beach Week amazing, but pretty amazing none the less. :)
 
And with that I sign off with really really mixed emotions.

I have sat too long in my silence. I have grown too old in my pain. To shed this skin, be born again, it starts with an ending. So thank you friends for the time we shared. My love stays with you like sunlight and air. Oh, how I truly wish I could keep hanging around here but my joy is covering me. Soon, I will disappear.
 
It's not a movie, no private screening. This method acting, well, I call that living. It's like a fountain, a door has opened. We have a problem with no solution but to love and to be loved.
 
*Here's to Bright Eyes and their awesome songs.

www.pheer.com <~ make that your best friend. I sware you'll find some of the BEST bands and BEST concerts in the area. Trust me. Oh just by the way... the stills are awesome, I'm currently listening to their Logic will break your heart CD. Ironically Logic will break your heart.

So I went to Tech the past few days. It was good I guess. My group kind of sucked, the people in it were just so weird and it's not like I came in not willing to open up and give them the time of day... I just felt that they were really ehhhh and you know how you just know? - It was kind of like that. Now I'm not saying all of them were bad or anything it's just that we were all really out of our comfort zones and so we were all nice to each other but I got the feeling I would not be hanging out with any of them this fall which is fine. Overall campus is AMAZING. Pedrew-Yates is the hottest place EVER... I bleed chicago maroon and burnt orange. On second thought, I just wear those colors... and good times. WOO. PS: THE PRE-MED/HONORS DEAN IS FRIKIN AWESOME. GOOO DR.SMITH!

Okay so I got tickets to go see OAR, Howie Day and Graham Frikin Colton at Wolf Trap... how HOT is that? I'm so excited. The show will be orgasmic. I hear Howie Day is phenomenal live and I don't doubt that. I have his Madrigals EP and it came with a DVD which is him doing an underground show in New York before he put out his first full length and it is mind-blowing. This guy is all kinds of talented and I'm so glad I will FINALLY get to see him in concert. I love what he can do on the acoustic. John Mayer, screw you. I love Howie Day - he's probably one of the best kept secrets out there. People like him make me love MAINE. Although what's not to love about Maine? Boats, Docks, Water... awesome.

Today I read about 17 students from Linköping University that have created a self parking car. And get this... it PARALLEL PARKS... PERFECTLY. Isn't that amazing? I sound like a dork. I probably do, but I mean how insane is that? Some people are just wow... I don't even know. If I ever met one of these guys I don't know what I'd do, but just think 17 people can change the way every single car is made from here on out. 17 people can make the lives of billions that much easier or that much better. I just thought it was cool.

That's all for now. I know these blogs are really really all over the place so sorry about that.

Part of Dr.Snizck's lecture: What two things should you never be late for in your life? a)Class, does anybody know what "b" is?

Random people: Your WEDDING, Your Funeral, Your Graduation
Doc S: You can be late to your wedding, it doesn't matter, you can be late to your funeral, and your graduation, and let me just tell you NO ONE will care if you're late to graduation, we'll just start without you...
Random people: So what is it?
Doc S: McDonalds Breakfast, remember 10:30 on weekdays and 11:00 on weekends... because if you want a hashbrown YOU CAN'T HAVE ONE if you're late, THEY'LL THROW THEM ALL AWAY - THEY'RE NOT GONNA WAIT FOR YOU...

It's just one of those nights. Anyway I'm listening to Konstantine right now by Something Corporate and wow I don't know what else to say aside from this is what I'm feeling and yeah so instead of writing I think I'll just post the lyrics to this song that is amazing in every way imaginable.

I can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
when the lights are turned down low
and I don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping inbetween
you and your big dreams
it's always you
in my big dreams

and you tell me that it's over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
and your restless, and i'm naked
you've gotta get out
you can't stand to see me shaking
no
could you let me go?
I didn't think so

and you don't wanna be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past
and you don't wanna look much closer
cuz your afraid to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
and it did
because of me

and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that you're alone
and i'm sleeping in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

I had these dreams that i learned to play guitar
maybe cross the country
become a rock star
and there was hope in me that i could take you there
but dammit you're so young
well i don't think i care
and if i hurt you
then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy

then you bring me home
cuz we both know what it's like to be alone
and i'm dreaming in your living room
but we don't have much room to live

and konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesn't she look good
standing in her underwear
and i was thinking
what i was thinking
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

my Konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do is touch her long blonde hair
and i've been thinking
it hurts me thinking that these nights
when we were drinking no they never got us anywhere
no

this is because i can spell konfusion with a k
and i like it
it's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car
when the first star you see may not be a star
I'm not your star
isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant

and if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
and all the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock
it's 11:11
and now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my konstantine

konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do
no they'll never hurt you like i do
no, no, no no no no no no

this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey
you know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things i did
hey
maybe
baby
you could keep me up in bed
my Konstantine
spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did you know i missed you?
oh god i miss you

and then you bring me home
and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know
you'll miss me in your living room
cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room
we don't have much room
i said does anybody need that room?
because we all need a little more room
to live

my Konstantine

*the bold part is my favorite part of the song... wow - I don't know what else to say.

Ugggh... okay so quick rundown... Bloger lost one of my entries because my computer froze or the power went out for like two seconds and I didn't save so just so I don't forget, I'll do a quick run down of what I wrote and it won't be detailed but it's okay. I just want references that will trigger instances later on just so I can remember. Here goes...

- Emily came with my uncle. Emily is awesome and I'm so glad she's going to be a part of the family now!
- I went for cocktails with Emily and my uncles at the Sky Dome which is a circular room at the very top of a hotel that rotates every 30 minutes so you can see the DC skyline and it's absolutely amazing. I've decided that I'll come back before my summer is over. My youngest uncle also told me that this was his designated "proposal spot" where he'll eventually pop the question one day to someone. Good job uncle. Seriously it's amazing up there and that's the perfect place to do that.
- Emily and uncles asked me if I wanted to go clubbing with them... WOW okay I love Emily to death and my uncles are awesome, I would NEVER in a MILLION years go clubbing with them because it's just weird. And they were like common hang out with us, you're old enough and it'll be fun. And it's not that I don't like hanging out with them, I just don't want to see my uncles dancing or clubbing EVER so I graciously declined the invitation.
- I went shopping with Emily earlier that day and wow I think my uncle is the luckiest person alive, because she is so amazing. We all had such a great time.

So morals of the story = a) EMILY IS AWESOME b) THE SKY DOME IS PHENOMENAL!

Happy Birthday America! Woooo It's the 4th!

Okay so right now I'm at my cousin's house. My uncle is here from South Carolina with his fiance [who I absolutely LOVE - good job uncle, you got lucky]. Okay so you may be wondering why my uncle is just now getting married. And the answer is because he's 2nd to youngest out of 6 kids so he's in his late 20s so just for future reference if I ever say I'm hanging out with my uncle or whatever don't get freaked out - I promise I'm not hanging out with mid aged over the hill people. That's why my youngest uncle went to visit UVA with me earlier this year... okay so now that you know part of my family history... I think I'll get back to useless rambling.

We just made a bunch of mixed drinks to kick start our 4th. Let me just tell you, I am one really happy camper right now. I'm currently drinking a fruity drink - I'm not sure what it's called but it has Mango Rum, Wildberry Vodka, Pineapple juice and some sorta mixed drink mix in it and it's SO good. My other uncle just made Pina Colladas so I'll have to get myself one of those soon! Mmmmmmm. :) We're also BBQ-ing outside but I don't really feel like eating. It's kinda greasy and ugggh and I had a hamburger the other day at Drew and Kaj's party so I'm all BBQed out. Awwww so I love my uncle's fiance - she is so cool. She's so upbeat and ahhh I dunno she's just so easy to get along with and she's so much fun. They just bought their first house together and she brought pictures. The house is so nice and I'm just like HOT DAYUM i'm staying with you guys one summer and it'll be good times.

So now I think i'm gonna go... we're going back to my house for fireworks later because they're shotting them from the lakes and yeah. There's an island in the middle of one of the lakes so they bring a boat out there and shoot them from there! GOOD TIMES, but right now I'm gonna go get a pina collada so I will see you all soon.

HAVE A GOOD ONE!

So today I decided that if I were to become a rapper... [highly unlikely, however we're just keeping our options open which is always a good thing to do] - but if I were to be a rapper my name would be Galapagos Finches and I'd rap about evolution...

The End.

This Blog is dedicated to my hopes and dreams [in no specific order]

- I want to live in New York, in a loft with my closest friends
- I want to go to France and french kiss a FRENCH boy just to say that I did, even if it's the crappiest kiss of all time, I can say that I did it and I'd be happy
- I want to date a rockstar or a sort of rock star [even if it's a local band guy] so I can travel and say that I got to experience that lifestyle... okay so now that I think about it, I really don't want to date a rockstar, I would rather be the Merch Girl for a summer, but only one summer.
- I want to be the owner of a convertible for a few years
- I want to make it into Med School
- I want to make it through Med School
- I want to be a really good Doctor and make a difference
- I want to LOVE my job and wake up in the morning happy that I get to go instead of pushing the snooze button dreading the start of my day
- I want to see the world starting with Argentina and Portugal
- I want to live in California for a year or so by the beach so I can have dinner on the beach whenever I want to or watch the sunset or have hour long talks with friends or dig my toes in the sand... whenever I want to.
- I want to find someone who compliments me... this is often referred to as "the one."
- I want to learn how to cook a thanksgiving dinner
- I eventually want kids one of which WILL be a boy named Aidan
- I want to go to a Josh Groban Concert and I want people to come to the Josh Groban concert with me [cough cough August 2 cough cough]
- I don't want to grow up "Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up, these are the best days of our lives."
- I want to have amazing friends, but I think that's something that I already have
- I want to eventually buy a house with a pool in the backyard
- I want a place that I can go and sort things out in my head
- I want to date a lot... even if I get my heart broken a million times and have to glue the pieces back together while leaving some of the ungluable pieces behind... why? Because my mom married the first guy that she ever dated [my dad] and that's great and all and I know she's happy but I could never do that... even if the first guy was "the one" I still want to date around just so I don't look back and wonder "what if." And plus if the first guy was "the one" then you'd find a way back to one another or at least that's how I think it works.
- I want to roll on the floor laughing to the point where I have abs
- I want to go to a movie premier
- I want to go to the Sundance Film Festivals
- I want to be friends with an indie film maker
- I want to go see the fireworks in DC [can you believe after living here all my life I haven't done that yet?]
- I want to go paddle boating with someone I actually want to be paddle boating with for hours on end.
- I want to learn how to operate a boat
- I want to own a boat
- I want to learn how to speak Italian
- I want to be FLUENT in French
- I want really awesome professors
- I want to have gay friends - fab 5 style
- I want to learn how to drive stick
- I want to drive a ferarri at least one in my life even if I'm just test driving

... to be continued

Wow... let me just tell you that I have a new found love for the band HelloGoodbye - I'm currently listening to their song "Dear Jamie... Sincerely Me" and I really like it a lot. Also, Stars Hide Fire has a new song out so go check that out... and they're playing tomorrow in Alexandria which is kind of local but not really. It's the last local show they'll be playing for awhile. They're playing Warped too but the setting won't be as intimate so I guess what I'm trying to say is... GO SEE THEM they put on an amazing show GO SEE THEM TOMORROW.

Yeah so today was kind of blah. I went shopping after my appointment because I was by Tysons and I haven't been in a long time so that was good and I was by myself so yeah it was good to kind of work things out while shopping. Ha yeah I promise I'm not a mall rat... Oh so I also saw the District Manager of American Eagle working at Tysons today which was weird because he remembered me from when I worked at Dulles and that was highly awkward because he asked if I still worked at AE and when I told him I quit he asked why I did so I'm all... yeah I wasn't really too happy with the managers there and he goes, "well one of them isn't there anymore" and yeah it was weird just because I didn't feel like justifying myself to him at the moment. But it was good seeing him again, he's such a nice guy and wow yeah so I like how I'm ranting and raving about the 40 year old district manager of American Eagle.... I will stop now.

Eh so I kind of wish I had a "private" button on here where I could write some of my thoughts down and not have anyone read them because some stuff happened today that was sorta disappointing and yeah I want to talk about it but it's one of those things that you just don't feel right letting everybody know about especially if it concerns someone else so I guess yeah I'll leave it at that...

Okay so after the mall I came home and I went to Dulles with Keirn and that was fun, we got hit on by some really really extremely sketchy guys and that wasn't so much fun because they were seriously really close to me and it just wasn't a comfortable situation and I hate guys that do that so yeah don't do that. Anyway we went to Buffalo Wing Factory for dinner which was cool and she's going to the beach this week so I won't be seeing her for awhile so it was good to hang out with her before she left...

And this is probably the most all over the place blog I have ever written but that's okay... as long as I understand it, all is good. So now I think I'm going to go to Best Buy. I'm really liking the whole idea of Franz Ferdinand so I'm thinking I'll go buy their CD. YES - that's what I'm going to do.

OFF I GO.