Friday, November 02, 2007

Meh.

So I went to West End (a delish dining hall on campus) with some friends today and I came to the realization that this was the first time I've been all year. WEST END, a place I could not live without Freshman year. THE West End, I worshiped when I was 18! This is the first time I've been back in months. My friend Stack who passed away in April as a result of what happened here used to work there. He'd pretty much ALWAYS be there around dinner time... working the pasta line with a smile and ready to strike up a good conversation. Maybe subconsciously I haven't gone back because I knew that he wouldn't be there and I knew that it would make me a lot sadder than I wanted it to. Death is hard to deal with. Sure enough, it has been 6 months already, and for the most part, day to day I'm okay. Days like today are just little blatant reminders that my friend is no longer here and for me, that's just incredibly difficult.

I also realized none of the faces there looked familiar. I must be OLD. Going to West End my first two years at Tech was a social event, you would run into EVERYONE. This time around, there were no familiar faces, and that was just kind of funny to me. I guess it's just an indication that the cycle keeps going whether you want it to or not. The new kids are coming in and you're leaving soon. I haven't thought about that at all. I will really miss this place. I know I'm not even halfway done with my Senior year yet, but honestly, I really LOVE this school and the memories I have here.

I guess that's what it boils down to though, in the end, it will just be you and your memories right?

1 comment:

Bryan said...

you should watch the world according to garp, they talk about life and memories... from the point of view of a battered woman's home... the movie is great not something you might expect to be 'classic robin williams' yes its true...