Sunday, July 30, 2006

Really really great Saturday night.

Well... as many as you know (through my numerous complaints) I have been taking 8 hour MCAT simulations every Saturday at the lovely hour of 7am. Nobody wants to get up at 7am and I'm positive nobody wants to do that on a Saturday morning either. Anyway, after being completely exhausted after my test, I took a nap. Laura later surprised me telling me she was making her way down to tech and that I should gear up for a party at the German Club manor... WHAT?! That's pretty exciting right? The G.E.R.M.A.N Club is pretty exclusive with their lists and rules so it was pretty cool that we got to go. Let me just say that their house is absolutely PHENOMENAL. It's gorgeous. Seriously, as we were walking up, we looked at each other and said, "I didn't know that we were going to a five star hotel." This place is beautiful. And as if that wasn't a good start to the night, the guys were such gentlemen! Not in the fake frat boy gentlemen way... bu the kind that open doors for you... basically everything you want in a guy. I always got the impression that they were very full of themselves just from what I heard other people say... but I'm here to say that they are anything but. They are GREAT guys. They also have really cute rules they have to follow... and at the same time these "guidelines" of sorts are kind of awkward but for everyone's benefit. Like... everytime someone spills a drink someone runs out with a mop to clean it up. SAFETY first right? And they write your name on your cup and the bartender will pass your drink to a brother to make sure it's "safe." No one else can get your drink for you. I guess it also helps the brothers familiarize themselves with the people at the party. Each pledge class also has to make up their own line dance to a ridiculous song and when the DJ plays the song... the WHOLE pledge class comes onto the dance floor. It's really cute. Anyway, it was an awesome night. We ended up going back to one of the guy's houses and watching Billy Madison and we ended up sleeping there too. Really not as sketchy as it sounds. It was good fun... maybe too much fun. I have a test on Monday to study for... BOOO!

Friday, July 28, 2006

New Customer Service Friend...
... + $160 in the bank account

Today I had to call Bank of America customer service because my credit was apparently in the negative or something which is impossible because I won’t ever let myself go below a certain amount because I’m just that type of person. So anyway, I called them because I had no idea what was going on and I thought someone had been spending money on my card. Well, it turns out all is well… and that the bank actually owes me money to the tune of $160 which is great. It’s like an early Birthday present or something. So anyway, while I was on the phone, I had a great customer service provider. It was funny, she asked me to confirm some information and asked for my birth date and wished me a happy early birthday. Then, she was like, yeah that’s my best friend’s birthday too! So we kind of got excited over that. Then she asked where I was from and how the weather was. I told her it was hot and sticky in Virginia and then she was like yeah I’m in California and it’s been the same way lately. I told her I had been watching CNN and I heard about the heat wave. And she was all… yeah man that’s the only show I get here. And then we started talking about Anderson Cooper. It was pretty much ridiculous. We gushed over him for a good five minutes. Ha… it was an interesting conversation. How many times do you bond with a customer service representative over the phone? It was nice how that turned out because usually I get people who hate their jobs and are in really bad moods. She was really chipper and fun to talk to so I guess that is my exciting news for the day. In other news… there are 5 days that stand between me and my 20th birthday!

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

A bad physics analogy...
(insert eyeroll here)

At the expense of sounding straight out of a Sex & The City script... this just has to be said. Do you ever sometimes feel that your relationship with someone is cyclical. Like it can only advance to a certain point in the relationship before you are back to square one? Well, I got to thinking about it today and well... I'm taking Physics this summer and it has taken over my life and I think that this "phenomenon" of sorts can be explained by magnets and magnetic field. Okay so... stay with me, I promise you won't get lost, just hold my hands and listen...

Okay so I think that with common knowledge, we can all deduce that magnets are attracted to each other. The same way that people are "attracted to each other." With magnets there are two different charges or poles and with people, you can say that "opposites attract." And well... in some cases that isn't true too... so you can say that they repel like with a magnet there is a North and South pole which "repel" each other. Again, we are using loose definitions here...

Okay so now that we have established the attraction... heres where the magnetic field comes in. Essentially, the magnetic field going around the pole is circular... It comes out of one end and circles around and comes through the other end to start all over again. This is like a cyclical relationship. Two people are attracted to each other but you can't help that you never advance past a certain point. The same things keep happening, and no matter how hard you try to change them, you'll always end up in this routine or "deja vu-like" chain of events and eventually you'll just end up where you first started... and the explanation... well, it's just physics and the laws of the universe.

So, was that nerdy or what? I hope it made sense. But you can't help but shake that feeling sometime... just remember you're going through what physicists refer to as Magnetic Field Theory.
Do you realize, that you have the most beautiful...

Okay so the Postal Service remake of that song has been stuck in my head all day. I really really like it.

On that note, I...

- made a new summer mix CD. It was well overdue seeing as the mixes that have been in my CD changer in my car have been there since February. That's not to say, I don't like the songs... but it was time for something new. The track list on this CD is as follows (for those of you who want to simulate a Mary driving experience):

1. The Postal Service - Do You Realize
2. Voxtrot - Mothers, Daughters, Sisters & Wives
3. Keane - Crystal Ball
4. The Raconteurs - Steady As She Goes
5. Ben Gibbard - Thriller cover
6. The Faint - Southern Belles In London Sing
7. Sufjan Stevens - To Be Alone With You
8. Andrew Bird - A Nervous Tic Motion of A Head To The Left
9. Buddy Holly - Everyday
10. Frank Sinatra - New York
11. Steel Train - I Want You Back Jackson 5 Cover
12. The Faint - I Disappear
13. Fugees - Killing Me Softly
14. Keane - Somewhere Only We Know
15. Nelly Furtado - Crazy (Gnarls Barkley) Cover
16. Busta Rhymes - Pass the Courvoisier
17. Kings of Convienance - I'd Rather Dance With You
18. Don McLean - American Pie

I ran 5 miles today! I've been in that routine for the past week and so far so good. It feels GREAT! Let me tell you. It has also come to a point where it has stopped burning so much. I think this is the healthiest my body has ever been so I'm hoping to keep this up. Oh... also today, while reading Zach Klein's blog - he had a link to this movie by the director of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and it looks great. It's called The Science of Sleep and I really really really want to see it as I LOVED Eternal Sunshine. Plus, I really like the main character in this movie... he was also in The Motorcycle Diaries and was AWESOME. So... I'm really stoked about this.

And that's pretty much what's going on with me this Tuesday.

Monday, July 24, 2006

Tony came to visit!

Yay. Tony is here providing company and laughs (which, were much needed by the way). I'm going a little nuts here without human interaction. Anyway today when we were at the hookah lounge we got to talking about the World Cup and how we shared a love for Zidane and his ways... and well... out popped this little gem of a video clip...



Reenacting a moment in sports history on Vimeo

My one hope is that Zidane sees this and is proud.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

It warms your heart and makes you bitter

So I realized I had run out of toilet paper at the lovely 10th hour of the night. I'm all comfortable in my PJs and so I made a run to Kroger. On my way back, I'm coming up to the entry way of my parking lot and there is the most perfect couple (ok, it was dark - i couldn't see their faces, but for the record let's just go ahead and say they looked great b/c the story is better that way) making out. It was straight out of a movie. I almost hit them because I didn't see them, but it was kind of sweet you know? They were so into the moment they didn't really care what was happening around them. I almost wanted to honk because I was excited for them, but I didn't want to seem like one of "those" people and I didn't want to ruin their moment. It was cute. And then upon parking, the realization that that hasn't happened to me in awhile set in and I was kind of bitter. Sorry to kill the story, but that's exactly what happened. It was like one of those, "ew, I kind of want what they have" moments.

Lame, huh?

This weekend flew by.

I can't believe it's Sunday night. Seems like this weekend just flew by. It wasn't that eventful either wihch makes me sad. The whole 8 hour MCAT simulation on Saturday morning really threw off my schedule. I was aching and tired that morning. It hurt to be up that early and the fact that I was up doing a math and science test was not so fun either. Oh well... this is what all the doctors had to do right? Okay, well count me in. I'm up for it. It's really testing my limits. It's funny how at the beginning of the class everyone's goal on the MCAT was to score above a 30 and this past Saturday everyone in my class was like "ehhh a 28 sounds good to me." Ha ha. I meant to go to the gym after my test on Saturday because I've recently started this routine of running 5 miles a day and it makes me feel really really good, but with the lack of sleep the night before and my exhuastion after the MCAT there was no way I could go and run 5 miles at the gym. Instead, I opted to plop in my bed. I'm so burnt out, I'm just ready to go home. Even if it is just for a weekend. My birthday is coming up so I'm really excited about what's in store for me back home. :) I miss everyone a lot. Summer session ends the 11th and I'm going home but then coming back the 19th to start school again. So I'll at least have a week off. ALl this work though has been really draining. I think by the time Winter break rolls around this year... I'll be ready for it more than anyone else. Come to think of it... I've been in school year round... At least, I won't be brain dead when school starts. I'll already be used to the schedule etc etc. Still though...

Okay so that was a lot of ranting... sorry. I also think I want to cut my hair short. I'm so scared to do it because I've had long hair forever and everyone really likes it and I like it too. I guess I'm just ready for a change. New Year, new you is what they all say right? I'm liking Nicole Ritchie's look right now so I think I may go with a hairstyle similar to hers. I'm so scared though. I guess I'll ask my stylist what she thinks. This is a big deal to us girls... ha ha I hate to be vain but it's true. A bad hair cut = months of misery. Kati and Nina said that it was a go... but I guess we'll see. I've realitively had the same hair for awhile now and I say we should part ways... we'll see. No matter what I'm getting my hair cut so I will post pictures when it's all done and over with. Sit tight for the big reveal.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Missing people, loving others.

This morning I had an 8 hour MCAT simulation test bright and early at 8am. I went to El Rods last night so waking up this morning did not feel good. Needless to say, I was releived when I went in and saw that I wasn't the only one who went out last night. In other news, I think the practice exam went well. I won't know until I get my scores back next weekish. But, I did come back and sleep for about 3 hours and it felt so good. I just made dinner but didn't have much of an appetite which wasn't good because all I ate today was a bagel. I ate about 4 pieces of ravioli before I just got grossed out. I'm not feeling to hot right now. I think I may just go back to bed. Anyway, during my test this morning we had a few people come in to make up missed test. This one guy had on linen pants which made me secretly laugh because it reminded me of the time I went to the Howie Day concert with Nina last summer and the guy behind us had a pair on, but then it started raining and his pants were very thin, and very see through, and we were basically forced to see his junk and it was awkward. Ha. I miss her.

In other news... I've really been infactuated with the music of Jose Gonzalez. He's supposed to be coming to Asheville in the Fall so maybe I'll be able to go. That would be pretty exciting actually. I really like his remake of Heartbeats. It's really sweet and I feel like it would be a good listen on a rainy day when you're alone in your room... kind of like right now. Here's a video of him singing it live via Spin.com. I really like it. I haven't gone to any concerts this summer as I've had so much work which really saddens me because in the past years, I think i've average at least 3-5 over the span of 2 months. I'm kind of disappointed. Maybe I'll try to make up for it in the fall.

One night to be confused
one night to speed up truth
we had a promise made
four hands and then away

both under influence
we had devine scent
to know what to say
mind is a razorblade

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

mmmm mmm Jose Gonzalez. Check him out if you get the chance. I don't think you'll be disappointed.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

It we don't see it, it didn't happen?

Can we please just go one day without being on the verge of WWIII? What's going on in Lebanon is such a tragedy. Well, war anywhere is a tragedy (needless to say). I know it's been getting press but on the whole it doesn't seem like too many people care. "Oh, it's happening somewhere else, so what?" So, what if you were there, and that was your house they were dropping bombs on? Then it would be a little different. Right now at our age, we're extremely hedonistic and if that's our philosophy then so be it. But, it kind of saddens me that some of my friends don't even know that it's going on. The mentality that "oh, if I'm not directly influenced by it, then I really don't care" really does not sit well with me. This is half the world's reality every day for significant parts, if not all their lives. Sometimes we just don't understand how lucky we are until we actually go and see for ourselves. I've personally have never been to a country that was currently in the middle of the war, but I've been to countries after they've been at war for many years and it's absolutely devestating. Yeah, you can watch it on tv and say it's sad, but you'll probably forget 5 minutes later when your favorite show comes on. When actually see what it does to people, and how hard it is to rebuild after such a catastrope - it really stays with you. I think I'm running this point into the ground now... but its times like these that our own ignorance really makes me sad.

In other news the US is evacuating it's citizens from Lebanon on cruise ships... which is good right? Yeah, but people wishing to leave have to pay a large sum. While France and other places are getting their citizens out for free. I mean, I feel like this is extortion in a way because people have no choice. Of course they are going to pay. It's either pay or most likely die. Of course you'd want to get out of there. I just think that there could be a better way... who knows, I'm not the one deciding.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006


We're old - but I like it.

Today is Laura's Birthday... she's young like me and one of the last of our friends (aside from me - I think I'm actully THE LAST) to turn 20! I keep saying this.... but what a frikin exciting time in our lives right?! We're living the best years of our lives RIGHT NOW. With 20 comes so many crucial life changes. I won't list them because that would be lame, but... let it be known that I'm excited so cheers to opening a new fun and challenging chapter in our lives... and Laura, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I wish I could be there to celebrate it with you but we'll have a party for summer birthdays when everyone comes back. :)

Quick note on newest musical obsession: Voxtrot. Especially the song "Mothers, Sisters, Daughters & Wives" - Not lame like John Mayer's "Daughters" even though it does go by a similar name.

Monday, July 17, 2006

They're dropping like flies...

I found out a friend of mine has just gotten engaged! Not only am I excited for her, but I know she'll be happy with this guy. They've been dating for three years and are completely obsessed with each other. I wish them the best!

As happy as I am for her - I can't help but feel like my life is moving at a million miles an hour. This is already happening around me and I kind of get the feeling that my time isn't too far around the corner either. This really freaks me out because I've got a lot of catching up to do. We're so young, but I guess if you're fortunate enough to find the one - then it doesn't really matter, it'll be right for you. Right now for me, I can't even think about what it would be like. I'm too scared and commitment-phobic and maybe I need to start realizing that my friends aren't and they've got it together. I'm sure when it happens, it'll be great - it's definately an exciting stage in your life that comes with lots of responsiblity as well and I don't think I'll be ready for that for awhile. It's just kind of hard to think about finding the right guy in a sea of douchebags and sketchballs galore. It kind of makes dating seem tedious, pointless, fruitless, and time consuming. And the awkwardness after a date that doesn't go well always creates this weird tension and... as life would have it, you'll see lame person EVERYWHERE after said awkward date.

Hmmm... perhaps I should work on that this year. Maybe start the semester not thinking that every guy I meet will be a jerk. Or maybe hoping that the circumstances this year will be better and maybe not go for guys that live a million miles away or are graduating... that always helps too.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Colin's Movie is coming out soon!

So Colin left us a little over 2 years ago to chase a dream. Well, one year later we heard he landed the job of a lifetime working with the director of Batman on his latest endeavor. So that brings us to the present... the movie wrapped up and is now scheduled to come out sometime this Fall! That's pretty much RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER! The trailer is out on apple if you want to check it out. From what I've seen so far, it looks good and his enthusiasm over it makes me confident that it WILL be good. It also helps that the cast is ridiculous. Not bad for a first job huh? So what's next for Colin? Oh you know a movie with Julia Roberts, Tom Hanks and a few other cool people... no big. Looks like he's well on his way huh?

I got a little excited and made a PR video clip for him...



Colin's Movie! on Vimeo
Awww... she misses me.

Saying that my sister and I don't get along isn't true. There's an age gap between us making it kind of hard for us to relate to each other because we're both at very different stages in our lives. We get along just fine, but we don't normally hang out much and what complicates the situation is that I've been taking and am taking classes here this summer so that means I NEVER see her. Anyway, she called me today and was like "Mary, you need to come home soon because... I miss you and when you come home we should make brownies and we can get our hair hilighted together and go out for a movie." Excuse me, what?! This never happens. I think it's cute that she misses me.... and honestly how could she not? I'm the coolest sister she'll ever have. I wouldn't want to imagine a summer without me either.

In other news, my parents came down today to check out my new place... and, I got the thumbs up. My mom likes it a lot - she think's it's a way better move then getting an appartment. You don't have to worry about noise, you have a backyard, and great parking. She's right. And I'm excited. I put a clip up on vimeo of the inside of the house but it's just bare. Once all the furniture and decorations are in I'll make another clip. Speaking of decorations, I asked my friend Joe for some help when trying to work on some art today but there have been a few setbacks... which is sad because I thought I'd have this done by today. I wanted to blow up some great photos that my friend Mike took (I told him that once I got my own place I'd plaster the walls with his photographs -- he's amazing and well the time has come to keep up my end of the bargain) but alas it could not be done without the original images. :( So, I guess I have a new challenge for this week... hopefully I'll be able to get this done. It'll look phenomenal, I know it.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Boo Matetrazzi!

Zidane explains what happens... helps if you know French.



Translation pour vous (via BBC, this whole translation is not part of the clip. The translation corresponding to the clip goes to the part where Zidane says that Materazzi insulted him personally. The rest I just kept so that you could see the full interview:

Interviewer: You know the Italian players well because you played in Italy for five years. Did you have any problem with any of them beforehand?

Zinedine Zidane: Not at all. You always have friction with certain players...that is the game, it has always been like that. But I never had any clashes with anyone.

Interviewer: Nor Materazzi?

Zinedine Zidane: No, never. There was nothing beforehand and nothing in the match until he started pulling my jersey.

He grabbed my shirt and I told him to stop. I told him if he wanted I'd swap it with him at the end of the match.

That is when he said some very hard words, which were harder than gestures. He repeated them several times. It all happened very quickly and he spoke about things which hurt me deep down.

Interviewer: Everyone wants to know exactly what he said...

Zinedine Zidane: They were very serious things, very personal things.

Interviewer: About your mother and your sister?

Zinedine Zidane: Yes. They were very hard words. You hear them once and you try to move away.

But then you hear them twice, and then a third time... I am a man and some words are harder to hear than actions. I would rather have taken a blow to the face than hear that.

Interviewer: He said these things about your mother and sister two or three times?

Zinedine Zidane: Yes. I reacted and of course it is not a gesture you should do. I must say that strongly.

It was seen by two or three billion people watching on television and millions and millions of children.

It was an inexcusable gesture and to them, and the people in education whose job it is to show children what they should and shouldn't do, I want to apologise.

Interviewer: You apologise to them but do you really regret having done it?

Zinedine Zidane: I can't regret it because if I do it would be like admitting that he was right to say all that. And above all, it was not right.

We always talk about the reaction, and inevitably it must be punished. But if there is no provocation, there is no reaction.

First of all you have to say there is provocation, and the guilty one is the one who does the provoking. The response is to always punish the reaction, but if I react, something has happened.

Do you imagine that in a World Cup final like that, with just 10 minutes to go to the end of my career, I am going to do something like that because it gives me pleasure?

Interviewer: No of course not. But at the moment you exploded...

Zinedine Zidane: There was provocation, and it was very serious, that is all. My action was inexcusable but you have to punish the real culprit, and the real culprit is the one who provoked it. Voila.

Thursday, July 13, 2006


Today was infinately awesome...

Why? Well... for starters my Physics lab partner and I cranked out our lab pretty fast and got to leave like an hour before everyone else did and... she's a lot of fun (not that my last physics partner wasn't fun... I just couldn't really relate to him). Then, I took a quiz and got 100! :) Annd... the most exciting news is that I got the keys to my first townhouse EVER today! My roomates aren't moving in for another few weeks so I got a chance to check it out by myself... we were supposed to get the unit right next to us but we heard this one had hardwood floors so without looking at it we signed the papers so I was completely skeptical going into this... but not anymore. I saw it today and it was everything I wanted it to be. It was great. It's got these awesome hardwood floors throughout the house which I ADORE. I slid on them for awhile - I was so excited. And then I ran upstairs to my bedroom and checked out the other rooms and they were all immaculate... and in all honestly it's probably not as great as I'm making it out to be. It's no Ashburn townhouse or anything but this is really exciting for Drew, Matt, and I because this is our FIRST place ever. The first time we'll be on our own. It's a surreal experience. I'll post footage of me running around and being excited on vimeo later. My parents are coming this weekend to see the place and buy furniture and decorate it etc. etc. Oh and... the picture above is one of my favorites. We took this today after coming back from the gym (which is why I look gross). That's me with my neighbor Moe... we're hardcore. Don't piss us off. We'll get you. Ha ha....

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

It's been a tough week...

This past weekend, against my better judgement (with my workload), I decided to go to UVA to meet up with some friends I haven't seen in awhile. I probably would have done it again if I could go back... but I came back to Blacksburg hitting the ground and running. I didn't realize I had so much work to do until this week. It's been stressful, but I'm slowly getting through it. Nothing a good Gin & Tonic can't cure (which by the way is my new favorite drink)... I've almost had one every night. Though this week has been pretty difficult workwise... it's also been pretty exciting. There was lots to look forward to like... yesterday the release of 3 CDs that I have been very excited about. Sufjan Stevens' Illinois outtakes, Thom Yorke's new album, and then TV on the Radio joined the CD release club and put theirs out too... Let me just say, aside from the Physics homework being impossible last night, it was a pretty good night. (Sidenote: Undergrads should not be expected to do physics equations that grad students can't even do themselves... i'm just sayin - Phil Nelson, take note). So as if that wasn't the highlight of my week... the SEASON PREMIER of Project Runway is on tonight and I am in love with that show. I cannot wait. :) I wish I could sew myself or knew people who did. I'd like to make a friend who wants to be a fashion designer and just makes clothes that I wear for him. That would be great. Only in dreams right? Future Fashion designers... send me an e-mail, I would LOVE to wear your clothes.

In other news...

Dylan just sent out his 3rd installment of Ireland updates and as if I haven't said this before, this kid is such a great writer. He writes a little paragraph or two about each day in Ireland and after a week or so compiles them and just sends them out in a mass e-mail. Normally if just anyone was writing, it would get boring and tedius to read 14 + paragraphs about 14+ days... but not with Dylan... It's a real pleasure getting to read what he does... he's good with metaphors, and setting a mood. To see for yourself head over to the link on the side that says D-love and read his blog. He's posted on there as well.

Monday, July 10, 2006

et pourquoi? et pourquoi?



For those of you who are living under rocks... France lost the World Cup to Italy yesterday (boooo!) And... one of the best footballers ended his career redcarded. What?! The video above depicts what happens and though described as a "classless" move, I still think it was pretty awesome. Not saying that Zidane should have done it or anything, but I mean... man, what a BAMF right?! Materazzi got schooled. I'm so upset Italy won yesterday, they sucked throughout the whole game. France was AWESOME. I love how during this clip the announcer keeps saying "et pourquoi, et pourquoi?" (read: and why? and why?) Yeah, we were all thinking the same thing. Sucks that he went out that way but man if it didn't turn you into a Zidane headbutt enthusiast... I don't know what to say.

Saturday, July 08, 2006

How this weekend unfolded
(via Vimeo clips - more can be seen on my Vimeo page)



10SQ/Kati(again) on Vimeo



Sweet dance moves on Vimeo

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

I REALLY REALLY REALLY....

want France to win today... and then I want them to just take the whole thing.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

First (of many) Vimeo 10SQ

I have my new digital camera now (which I am in LOVE with) and the battery is all charged up and so I decided to play around with it and made this video... and by the way, this was not rehearsed at all which makes it completely awesome.My mom rocks.



10SQ/Mom on Vimeo

Saturday, July 01, 2006

She likes to leave you hanging on a word

I found my diary last night while rummaging through my room and sat down to go back and read through some of the pages. I think in this particular one, I started writing in it Junior year of High School. It's so funny going back and seeing how sincerely upset you were about some of the most trivial things. It's also nice to see that I have matured a little bit since then. I think I would be upset if I read it and realize that I haven't changed at all. Anyway, I found that I ended up writing a lot about different guys in my life and that I always wrote what song I was listening to at the time when all this was going on. So I've come to the conclusion that maybe I should make CDs with songs that remind me of each person. I know the soundtracks would be completely different. But it's a project that I think will be interesting to look back on. For instance I will name each CD "The (insert guy's name here) Era" and have 12-15 songs that a) remind me of him b) the time we spent together c) remind me of the situation d) were popular during that time.

Just a thought, I'm not sure if I'll actually follow through, but it would be neat to randomly find these CDs five years from now and listen to one and have that period of your life flooding back to you.